Hanging there in suspense

Don’t know what to do next! Don’t know what I’m doing right now! I’m in a time when I’m totally confused what to do next. Very unlikely me! Usually I’m a much planned person and have plans for the next 2 to 3 years. And in case I don’t have any plans working out, I will freak the mess around me, google out options – day in and out, talk to elders, parents, professionals etc.. etc.. and pray hard – asking God (or rather yelling at Him) to show me the way. And only when I get my answer and plans start working out – will I rest and be at peace.[I totally believe in working hard]

But this time, it’s not me – It seems. Neither am I confident of Plan A, nor do I have any plans B, C, D, E…. And instead of freaking out – I…